Today, thanks to a 4.3 earthquake I awoke before 6 am. My poor puppies jumped wide-eyed into my hospital bed with me.
It is going to be over 100 degrees all week and muggy, I could have stayed in the south for this weather, I don’t remember California ever being this humid as a child. Then, I remembered that I grew up only 6 miles from the beach, not here in the Inland Empire valley smog hell I live in now. I will leave California and this time never return.
I had a little better night and was able to sleep, well until mother nature abruptly woke me up, but I got a lot done yesterday before I had to put my feet up. Today I should be able to finish the dishes and maybe make mom her apple pie tonight after the sun goes down. With all the fresh tomatoes lately I’ve been able to be creative in cool cooking, I just bought a new rice cooker and it’s a dud, second time I used it and it quit working mid-cooking! It’s a black and decker so I will check the book to see how to return it. As I said before, if I didn’t have bad luck, I wouldn’t have any luck at all!
I can’t believe that another week has come and gone, I am doing so much better mentally because of the friends I have made here, I find strength and courage to push harder because of your kindness and support, Thank you so much. (now if physically I was better, we would have a miracle, I know, all in good time. )
Today my grandson will be one month old, I don’t even know what he looks like past the first two days of his life, it saddens me that I missed that baby smells and first-time things, what scares me is the numbness I have while writing about it. I always wanted to be a Grandma and my son spoiled that excitement for me. I still have not gotten back to working on the quilt but I will even if I do it to show in competitions. I would have loved and spoiled him like my grandparents never did but were supposed to have.
I’m mellow today, very stiff and swollen, every step feeling as if the ground is made of sharp knives cutting into my feet, yet my heart says to keep pushing until the pain reaches my ass, then stop for the day. So that is exactly what I will do.
I am honestly humbled and undeserved of such love and support from all of you, but I welcome all of it with open arms, thanks for believing in me when I almost forgot to. Every single one of you are giving me the opportunity to believe that I got this and can do this. Thank you
Always Smile, Never let them see your fear!
Don’t give anyone power over you, only you can take charge of your life.
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