I can’t, I have to Pee!


Why does this always happen?
I am at the stage in my life where I have to plan my day around my bladder.
I want to cook, I have to pee.
I just get settled in to watch a movie, I have to pee.
I just start to dream, I wake myself up to pee.
I hate this!

For the longest time, I will be dreaming and the whole dream becomes about finding a bathroom, and if I do find one, it’s always clogged or out of order giving me time to wake up and make it to the bathroom for real.
God forbid should I find a toilet that works, I would probably pee the bed.

Now, why did I pick this subject?

I don’t take medication unless I have no choice, and if my swelling gets so bad, where I look like the Stay puff marshmallow man and I can’t bend my joints and I can’t breath, I have no choice but to take a diuretic.  Yesterday, was one of those days, and today I am paying for it, they are just too much for my kidneys.

Today, I wish I could cry, if the stupid things didn’t work I never would take them.  When I am taking my vitamins non stop I don’t have the fluid build up, but a diuretic is quick effective way for me to stay out of the hospital. I am so sick of water, the pain in my lower back is just starting to calm down enough for me to catch my breath.

I try so hard to find ways to be positive, but being human that is not always possible.  Pain numbs my mind or sets it spinning out of control, never anything in between.  But I made myself a promise, to write something at least once a day. I am a creature of habit so if I miss just one day I may not make it back.

I am honestly having a hard time and miss having someone to talk to, maybe one more good night sleep will help. I love storms, but hot, humid days are taking its toll on all my old breaks and joints.  As I read other blogs, I find I am not the only one feeling this way.

I am going to make everyone dinner and call it quits, I’m going to bed early.  Good Night my friends.

Always Smile, Never let them see your fear!
Don’t give anyone power over you, only you can take charge of your life.

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