I can’t believe that it’s already Saturday, where has the week gone? I am so tired of this heat and humidity, I expected it when I lived in the deep south, but here in California, I don’t remember it ever being this bad growing up.
I have so much to get done and need to but my mind and body are just not listening to me, I only have a few months before mom runs out of time on her insurance. I wish I could just build a small place overlooking a body of water where mom could spend the rest of her days, that would make her so happy. But after working my fingers to the bone all of those many years, I have nothing left to show for it, between my sons, mom, and the state taxes and my own health problems, it’s all gone, every last dime.
I have to figure out a solution, but as I said before, mind and body are no longer helping me out. I need energy, I need cooler weather, I need some good news every once in a while, instead of constantly being bombarded with problems after problems. I am only human, I am literally trying to just keep my head above water here, I don’t want to drown, but I am so very tired. I feel so alone in the darkness in the middle of the ocean and every shark is circling and bumping into me, I am getting caught up in the fear, I am pushing harder than I ever had to before, I just can’t convince myself that I will ever be rescued, I have no lifeline left to call on. I need to find that ring of light, something, anything that I can hold on to and trust to help me float until I am found.
Sometimes, you ask for help and only get silence in return.
Always Smile, Never let them see your fear!
Don’t give anyone power over you, only you can take charge of your life.
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