I got called Tuesday informing me that ready or not my mom would be released on Thursday and there was nothing I could do about it.
I looked at mom’s room, I cried, laughed and panicking I wanted to throw up my hands and just give up. But I worked a few hours, then put my feet up and emailed my Dearest Friend that I have ever known in my whole life, someone who I never met in person but we couldn’t be closer if we were born sisters. Becca, is my Dearest, Sweetest, closest bear cub, 24/7 she matched me email for email, she allows me to vent to ignore the pain of over doing it, she is a worry wart just like me, so by writing while on break she knew that I was alright.
I have never had to clean up after a hoarding person, I am a neat freak, everything has its place, when I lost most of my eyesight, I believe I just quit caring and since mom is one of those who say “it’s My House, my rules! ” and “Do as I Say!, Not, as I Do!”
I just kept to myself and let her do whatever, I made my goals to get healthy and have worked very hard to reach them.
When I started this blog in April of this year I weighed over 400 pounds and wore a size 6x.
I set up my pool project to work out under water where there was less pain and stress on my joints. I had met quite a few friends from my blog and they encouraged me daily until I finish the project, but after that I hardly ever heard from them, they weren’t mad or rude or anything like that, but life for them just became busy and I just faded away. I think of each of them and miss them and wish them well.
Then I met Rebecca and we have never missed a day emailing each other, sharing our problems, encouraging each other, we laughed, cried and worried about the other, I won’t speak for her, but I can honestly say no one else has earned my respect, admiration and complete trust as she has.
Because of her encouragement I was brave enough to hire the neighbors druggy parents and together we finished mom’s room, 15 minutes before she came home.
Knowing Becca was worried about something happening to me, I made sure that I took many breaks to let her know that I was still amongst the living!
I am exausted and I hurt, but my mom is home, she may never walk again, but she’s home. I am now under 380 pounds, and I am literally wearing size 3x sweat pants right now. Time for me to set a new goal!
After I get some sleep of course!
Always Smile, Never let them see your fear!
Don’t give anyone power over you, only you can take charge of your life.
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